I'M So Alone...

Hey. It sucks that you feel that way. And it sucks that you believe nothing good will come in your life. I just wanted to say that you're not alone, and there are a lot of people who feel the same way you do. Even people who you probably would least expect. I agree with you, it feels good to let out your feelings on this site, that's why I joined. I also fight depression and feel lonely and depressed every day. When I think about why I feel so lonely I think about how I grew up, divorced parents, dad wasn't involved in my life, my mom was single raising me and was depressed herself and would rarely do anything with me, I didn't have anyone blood related that I was connected to growing up. My mom was overprotective and non-supportive of any of my dreams and desires that seemed "far-fetched". I went through elementary, middle, and high school being self-concious every day, and I was never confident in myself. I just never had someone in my life who made me feel confident in myself. I went down the wrong path in high school and right out of high school, made the wrong friends. And now I am at a point where I realize all of this and I want to be the person I know I really am. It's not my fault or your fault that we are depressed. But it's our fault if we don't do anything about it, you know? Anyone who has thoughts like you and I didn't just get those feelings from nowhere. They happend from events overtime. You just got to think about why you feel so down. And try your hardest to shift your negative thoughts into positive ones. If you make an effort to think more positive everyday, I swear, eventually things will start getting better for you. I've been there. I feel for you. The next step for you is realizing things can be different and you can control your happiness. Best wishes! -Lisa

I also feel as though this is the only place where anyone will listen. It's too awkward to talk to family or friends, if you put it on Facebook people can still look at it and talk to you, and here no one knows you and they just know what you have to say. Most people you know also don't know what this is! So it's perfect for ranting. Other than that, I would really want to hear your story if you want to talk about it.