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I Fight Depression and Loneliness Everyday

Nobody Would Miss Me

By: raerae1985
Written on February 6th, 2013
I know it is easy to say but I know if I was dead I would not be missed. The only thing that would be missed would be my monthly wage. For as long as I can remember I have always been told I am stupid and worthless by my family. My father used to hit me as well as emotionally abuse me as did my mother. My sisters can do no wrong and yet I am the one who is always wrong.
When my father left us I did everything to hold what was left of my family together and it just gets thrown at me.
I have heard my mother say that if she had not fallen pregnant with me she would not have had to marry my father,
I wish I was dead
I have no-one to turn to
By: raerae1985
Age: 26-30 , Female
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  • Alexandree
    Alexandree

    Hi. I am 18, very much younger than you, perhaps not even have much to tell or advise, as I've not gone through as much as you have. However, I ve gone through some difficult times of my life where I felt just the same as you did: hopeless, worthless, useless, good for nothing... But think rationally, what good does that do? Instead of ruminating on the racing thoughts in your mind day and night, why not try something to solve the issue here?
    Actually, do you really need to turn to someone? You are an adult and independent. However, If you do, and family is not an option, consider finding a psychologist or therapist, let them help you in discovering a way out YOURSELF. This is not for long term, it's only short term for u to figure things out I guess. :)

    Like I said previously, I am only 18. I can't offer u much, but I hope this helps. :D God bless.

    Feb 7
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  • baltazar816
    baltazar816

    I can't imagine how terrible it would be for my family to be so cruel like that. I'm sorry you have had to go through all that. You will be in my prayers.

    Feb 6
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  • Perksplayhot
    Perksplayhot

    it is depressing when family doesn't love or care. Then find a reason to love someone who need you. Your work to begin with ;) and slowly, you would feel better. Love is seldom returned and if people you have as family are not nice, then get a new family..I mean getting married .

    Feb 6
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  • totallytea
    totallytea

    People assume that family is always there to love you, but the truth is that not all families are. I have a feeling your mother resents you because she felt she had to marry your father. That is NOT your fault. You are not the reason for her unhappiness. Each of us is responsible for our own happiness. Let family go. Do what you need to do to make yourself happy. Who cares what they think. You are unique and special. Find who you are and let your spirit soar.

    Feb 6
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  • Kadlyn
    Kadlyn

    In association with family, there are 3 types of people and situations in this world. there are the people that have a supportive family, the people who dont have a supportive family but have no problems, and the people who dont have a supportive family but need one i.e you. The simplest option would be to completely let go of family and realize that none of it was your fault. Sadly for most people that is not an option even though how s***ty they family is. That really is the only thing that will truly work. The next best thing is to find someone to talk to which could be anyone really.
    good luck and if u ever need to talk just msg me :)

    Feb 6
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    • raerae1985
      raerae1985

      Thank you so much Kadlyn. I just feel so alone sometimes and what you have said is so kind :)

      Feb 6
      1 like