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I Fight Depression and Loneliness Everyday

I Have Nobody. Nothing To Keep Me Here...

By: An EP User
Written on February 17th, 2013
I cannot go on like this any longer and think tonight is the night to put this all to rest. I'm so sick of it all. I can't stand the thought of one more day of misery. I have a bottle of sleeping pills and it seems like an easy way out. I'm just gonna down them and be done with this crap once and for all.
By: An EP User
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  • HedoZen
    HedoZen

    I last year found the cadaver of my neighbour who committed suicide. I got mad he did not tell me about it we could have left together then I now feel so weak not being able to just vanish, just disappear.....but don't do it tonight, wait a bit there’s that concept of we just don't know what waiting 4us at the corner

    Feb 17
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    • takethislife
      takethislife

      I didn't do it. I just 2 sleeping pills instead so I could get some sleep. I'm just gonna try and take it one sad day at a time and hope for a brighter tomorrow. I sure hope it gets better soon because this is killing.

      Feb 18
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    • HedoZen
      HedoZen

      I hear ya, I'm with ya *muahhh*

      Feb 18
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    • fragiletulips
      fragiletulips

      I hope things get better for you soon. sometimes we just have to trudge along and find reasons to stay every single day. sometimes just sitting outside and seeing nature helps me feel better about my choice to stay here. there are so many beautiful things you have yet to see. even if you don't feel like it right now, you haven't seen them so you wouldn't know! :p

      Feb 19
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    • HedoZen
      HedoZen

      So sweet of you, just that when you’ve been in that mental state of mind since what seems forever, I just don't see any exit doors. There is nothing positive for me to wake up to every morning its ******* sad. Per example today, I am facing so much stuff I don't want to deal with, it got me back on down mode and stressed that I can’t even nap dammit...lol... *Hugs* gesture 2u xxx

      Feb 19
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    • fragiletulips
      fragiletulips

      actually, I've been struggling with depression and previous suicide attempts since I was very young. I know how hard it is, I know how it feels to be trapped in that darkness and finding no light no matter how hard you search. I know how it feels to hurt so much you just go numb and hope it will just all go away. I obviously dont know exactly how you feel, but I might understand if you ever wanna talk. I'm here to listen :)

      Feb 19
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    • HedoZen
      HedoZen

      I feel exactly as you describe and morning wake ups I go *wtf* another ******* day...you’re an angel :)

      Feb 19
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    • HedoZen
      HedoZen

      Omg I just noticed your all fresh and new on ep :)

      Feb 19
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    • takethislife
      takethislife

      Hey guys. Thanks for all the support. It's helped me so much. Today is the first day I've gone without crying in I don't know how long. I still feel like I wanna cry but I've been able to hold it back, let's see if I can make it through the night without tears. If so then tomorrow make be another ok day. I'm trying to find reasons to smile. Trying to imagine a day when this is all behind me. I hope you guys are ok.

      Feb 19
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    • HedoZen
      HedoZen

      I'm presently eating my emotions, feel my stomach is going to blow out and coma sleep awaits me....sleep tight xxx

      Feb 19
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