I don't want pity or anyone trying to "talk me out of it" because it won't happen.

I contemplate a different way to die every day. I think of anything between quick and painless, to slow and painful. Even ways to slowly kill myself while loosing weight.

THESE ARE JUST THOUGHT THAT CROSS MY MIND. NO I DO NOT INTEND TO ACT UPON ANY OF THEM.

I already have a plan for when I'm told I'm terminally ill or when I'm just done being a old crotchety lady who just ***** with everyone.

Until then..I fully intend to live my life to the fullest and make every minute count. I am generally a happy women, and deal with my **** accordingly ^.^
Braecridhe Braecridhe
22-25, F
3 Responses Aug 16, 2014

i'm alone in life it seem people avoid me where i go through school and work . all i wanted is to fit in. some where i made the remark i wont give people what they want i'll stick around.

...... that is totally normal.

Is it?

Yeah.. when the muscles relax out comes the internal pressure..unless you let go before you let go..

Oh yea, I know that's normal. I p*ssed all over my ex last time lol. I'm not sure that waking up every morning & the first thing in the your head is hanging yourself everyday is normal though. Suppose if they polled it its a bit unfair though coz half those people are already dead..?

Maybe.. that's what we ultimately do..

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Sometimes I wonder what clothes to wear when I hang myself off the balcony. But then I'd also need a change of clothes because I'd **** myself at least & likely **** myself too as I die & my muscles all let go.. Is that wrong?