Maybe I'm meant to be alone forever. What if there is no one out there for me, what then? I think I'm being punished. I give too much and care too much for others. I'm tired of lies and just being a door mat.
XjustbreatheX XjustbreatheX
36-40, F
3 Responses Aug 17, 2014

Then use this time to clean out all the old life stuff that you are hanging onto.
Each day is new - why then bring back the past.
When you come across as desperate, this can be a huge hamper to a future mate.
Your most important person to you is you. When you are comfortable in you, so will others be.
Have you given volunteering a go yet? I have been in the Big Sister/Little Sister program. Then you can offer guidance to a young girl who has family/life issues.
Then last be not least- forgive you. Forgive others that have hurt you. It is never to late to shine your spirit high.
Quote for you:
You are a child of the universe no less than the tress and the stars you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you no doubt the Universe is unfolding as it should. Max Ehrmnn

I understand that feeling as I have had the same numerous times. Not thinking there was anyone for me. Then I meet a new person and my world is wonderful. Eventually, I am alone yet again wondering if I am just meant to be alone. I tell you this because you cannot predict the future and neither can I. People will come into your life when least expected and will make your life wonderful once again.

I don't think I'm meant for anyone either :'( I lose the girl I love most in the world :'( there's no one else I want so I'd rather be alone :'(

I know that exact feeling