I have been suicidal for years now. I think about it every day. I used to cut, and at first I did it for attention. I wanted somebody to notice and to care. That passed when people did know, and still didn't care. Whenever I tried to talk to someone about it, they would either say 'I'm sorry you feel that way," and then change the subject, or turn it into all about them. I just wanted help. I spend all my time helping other people with problems. I haven't told anyone about these thoughts in two years. It hurts because there is literally no one that i can talk to about these feelings. No one knows the real me, or the pain I feel everyday.
loveandstuff8 loveandstuff8
18-21, F
3 Responses Aug 20, 2014

rea~~lly you can have as your friend,duh~

I know what it's like to be in that position, i've been suicidal for quite sometime but i'm not anymore because i have friends that cares and i end up turning away from them, i have to learn the hard way so if you have anyone that you know cares about you then talk to them, i'm sure they wont judge you if they do then that's not a friend, anyway im just letting you know my experience the short version anyway haha, but if you need someone to talk to, to listen, to communicate or just to vent then msg me anytime and i will get back to you ASAP.

Whenever you want to chat about the problems you feel, you could chat me anytime. I know you might have heard this but i am a caring person to talk to whenever you have anything bothering you. I am always here for you and as crazy as it sounds, i love you and i hope you find that person that you need to talk to no matter if its me or someone else.