Why I can't let anyone close. I believe that on a base level I am not worth anything. I believe I am the scum of the earth. I believe my hair is too ugly to look at. I believe my face is grotesque when viewed up close. I believe my eyes are to small to stare in and if you do you'll see the terrible truth in them. I believe I smell terribly. I don't know why I think these things. It's ******, but it's what I think when ever someone looks at me or tries to get close and it is why I am lonely. Why I think I don't deserve love or friendship.
princessaliababua princessaliababua
26-30, F
7 Responses Aug 23, 2014

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don't hurt your self because what others think.
i had my school pals turn on me because one of their new friends didn't like me.i wasn't tall enough to hang around i didn't do drugs,the list can go on the thing was i exercised good judgment they didn't. a lot of those people are not around anymore the ones that are i wont let them me friends again it's hard to trust people i know.

I had a similar experience that turned disastrous and I guess it really got to me

My biracial teen committed suicide last year because she had these very same thoughts. These thoughts are signs of depression. Pick up the phone and schedule an appointment with a sliding scale counselor. You deserve happiness, you are a beautiful and smart girl. Don't let a brain (that just may need an anti-depressant) ruin your life. There are people who will love you for exactly who you are. There is NOTHING wrong with you. But when you're depressed your brain isn't thinking clearly. So please, reach out and get some support because it's just the depression talking.-From a mom who lost her daughter to depression

Friendships and other relationships are not based on how you look. Looks only cause first impression, which everyone knows are usually wrong. Friendships are based on how you connect in sharing interests and ideals. And if you think your eyes are small you can make them bigger using eyeliner, but you do what you want. I think you're pretty. Some days I feel the same as you, but I can usually find things that I can consistently like about myself, even if it's just the color of my eyes.

I know how you feel. I feel the same way about myself.

what he said miss.

You are attractive. The problem is you are too close to yourself. Get too close and the flaws become huge. Step back and the beauty appears.

That's interesting. Do you say we can't see the forest for the trees?
I had never thought so

A cruder way to put it, I recall a science class that had a woman nipple under microscope. A horrid mess of bacteria. Didn't change my mind, still have my perspective :-D

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