"No one knows what it's like
To be the bad man
To be the sad man
Behind blue eyes
And no one knows what it's like
To be hated
To be fated
To telling only lies

But my dreams they aren't as empty
As my conscious seems to be
I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
That's never free"
- The who / Limp Bizkit - Behind blue eyes

Feeling sad every day, but covering it up with a smile and some jokes.

Telling only lies, because I gave it up to tell my friends the truth, because I can't stand that "Oh, that sounds bad" talk anymore. Why do they ask, if they don't even try to help?

My love is vengeance, that's never free. So true, I want them to feel like I do.

But my dreams the aren't as empty as my conscious seems to be. I still have hope that every will be good and I have still the power stand up every morning, but for how long? It is slowly dying in me.
Gammler Gammler
26-30, M
2 Responses Aug 28, 2014

1Jn 5:20 And we know that the Son of God is come, and hath given us an understanding, that we may know him that is true, and we are in him that is true, even in his Son Jesus Christ. This is the true God, and eternal life.
Eph 2:1 And you hath he quickened, who were dead in trespasses and sins;
Eph 2:13 But now in Christ Jesus ye who sometimes were far off are made nigh by the blood of Christ.
Eph 2:14 For he is our peace, who hath made both one, and hath broken down the middle wall of partition between us; Eph 2:16 And that he might reconcile both unto God in one body by the cross, having slain the enmity thereby:
Eph 2:17 And came and preached peace to you which were afar off, and to them that were nigh.
Eph 4:8 Wherefore he saith, When he ascended up on high, he led captivity captive, and gave gifts unto men.

that song made me stuck in sadness