My dad died a few months ago and i miss him a lot. Honestly,he was the only person i could trust when it comes to all my feelings and problems but now he's gone its really hard. I don't feel like i can share any of my problems to my mum. I never really have told her anything. Im lonely and i cry myself to sleep every night. I feel like I don't have a reason to live. My mum keeps saying stuff like im ugly and im a waste of space and im dumb and a lot more of hurting stuff and i just dont know what to do anymore.
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16-17, F
4 Responses Aug 28, 2014

1Jn 5:20 And we know that the Son of God is come, and hath given us an understanding, that we may know him that is true, and we are in him that is true, even in his Son Jesus Christ. This is the true God, and eternal life.
Eph 2:1 And you hath he quickened, who were dead in trespasses and sins;
Eph 2:13 But now in Christ Jesus ye who sometimes were far off are made nigh by the blood of Christ.
Eph 2:14 For he is our peace, who hath made both one, and hath broken down the middle wall of partition between us; Eph 2:16 And that he might reconcile both unto God in one body by the cross, having slain the enmity thereby:
Eph 2:17 And came and preached peace to you which were afar off, and to them that were nigh.
Eph 4:8 Wherefore he saith, When he ascended up on high, he led captivity captive, and gave gifts unto men.

Maybe you could get a hobby or something,not trying to sound rude or anything. But my depression is solely from anxiety and I actually use cartoons,anime,video games and manga as a coping mechanism and it became sorta like an obsession though :P but it really helps a lot. I'm no expert or anything but maybe you should find a hobby or something to just relax yourself and subconsciously let out all your feelings while doing your hobby or whatever.

sorry for your dad's loss,your stronger than you look

I'm in tears after reading your post. Please hang in there. He would want you to be very happy and not suffer like this. I don't know why your mom would tell you something like that, but perhaps she is going through pain as well. Just forgive and forget whatever she says. Try speaking to someone at school and sharing your thoughts and feelings. You're not alone.