To be honest i don't know what to do anymore. I lost the only friend i have i guess he was tired of being down the hole time but i can't help it it just happens and it seems it's happening alot more lately i get to the point where i think of ending this miserable existence i call a life the thought is a daily occurrence for me and i don't know what to do like what's the point in living if you have nothing/nobody to live for. everyone would be better of if i never existed in the first place i just cant deal with all this i see no hope for a future so why should i stay if only to suffer like this alone for the rest of my life it sounds crazy to me that i/someone would live like this i see no real reason to go-on living yet i dont want to die i guess it just shows i f*ucked up i really am. I hate living but i don't want to die i guess i'm just a coward who can't go through with it for now anyway maybe i'll have enough courage soon to just say f*uck it and be done with all this ****** existence.
mickey8701 mickey8701
22-25, M
1 Response Aug 30, 2014