Here I am after 38 years of marriage finding out that I am getting a divorce. The house is going up to sell. I hope it does because I do not know how I will make the payments. I have paid the other bills and he paided the house payment. The good thing is I have a job. I plan to look for weekend part time work also. I have to live this process one day at a time. The house is not in good repair as he did not care to keep it up. Just this monday I found out he has put a downpayment on a new house 6 hours away from here by accident. I really have to trust God and watch my thoughts. I have rented a storage space and packing up things to take to it. I do not have family here that can help. What a growth experience for me at this time in my life.