Just A Friend Of Convinence!When I was younger, my friend's friends would always end up being a better friend of mine, than they were to my other friend. I have always just had a couple good friends.It's seems like the past 15 years of my life that I have just been a friend of convience to others. I still have a few good friends, but they live a distance from me.
I moved to another state two years ago. When I first got here I was befriended by a few nieghbors. I was very happy about this. We became close, so I thought. I would have dinner parties for the two really close friends and a few other nieghbors. If they needed anything from me I was there for them and vise versa. Gradually one of them stopped calling me when she embarked on a new career and circle of friends. I suppose she is getting what she needs now. Unlike me she makes friends very easily. I was really hurt by this.
My other close friend has been really busy with his mother and job. I understand this, but we havn't talked in months. He gradually has drifted away as well.
I don't work due to staying home a caring for my disabled husband. As it is hard for me to make friends, I don't see me making any where I live anytime soon. I do have a few other friends, but they live in another country and are only here a few times a year.
I don't have anyone I can call and say hey let's go for lunch, a walk, shopping, etc. It is very lonely and I hold tears back more often than I used to.
Why is it so hard for me to make and keep a friend? I am very caring, giving, a good listner, fun, funny, and always there if they need me