Deadly Obsession?

Growing up, my favorite shows were Forensic Files, The New Detectives, and all the other forensic shows and such. When I was eight years old, I told my mother I wanted to be a Forensic Scientist. Yes, Serial Killers... or all killers really... fascinate me. When I was nine, I decided that I wanted to solve the Jack the Ripper case. I was very into it. I'm always reading, and my favorites are true crime novels. I've read so many of them.. and I'm working on the one that has me interested in Criminal Profiling. I guess that shows that I'm curious as to how the criminal's mind works (I'm interested in everyone's minds though). I also like to look at everything leading up to the moment of the first killing. I like to look at every aspect of the crime. For me, its kind of like a car crash. No body wants them to happen, but when they do, you can't help but strain your neck to look and see what happened. I have that same curiosity when it comes to these cases. My Freshmen year of High-School, in my speech & drama class, we were told to give a speech on a topic that we have a deep interest in. I chose the Tate-LaBianca murders (which includes a third killing of another man at his home). The person I didn't even get along with in the class was the first to comment. He was amazed. He told me that it was the most amazing speech he had ever heard on such a topic. I didn't just tell the details, I identified with the victims as best I could and gave insight to the insane genious of the man who masterminded it all: Charles "Charlie" Manson. I definitely am interested in killers.... but not in a Marilyn Manson "I idolize Charlie" way... Its the mind, the background, the act, the details, and the justice (if any) that mainly interests me.

PoeticRejection PoeticRejection
22-25, F
4 Responses Jul 14, 2007

It's the whole air of mystery that just draws us in. It's like a bug to a light or a bilemic to a trash can (no offense to anyone here). You just have to know.

It's the obvious difference in mind that attracts me. I am always watching people, how they talk, how they move, how they react to various stimuli. It isn't the act of killing that draws me although sometimes the methods are enlightening to who they are. It is the reason for killing. I read a study in college about brain chemistry and geometry in "normal" brains and the same for known repeat killers. The differences were shocking. These people, male or female, are not even physically the same as "normal" people. I am genuinly fascinated by them. I want to be in their minds to see for myself how they think.<br />
I will do some research for you Sunset nd see what I can come up with.

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I couldnt had said it better myself! I totally agree with your fascination, its how I feel as well. I have become fascinated by cold cases, serial killers, murder in general. But as you said, I like to know the backstory, the steps leading up to that moment, why did they do what they did? I too have been considering changing my major to something in criminal justice, I want to work on these cases hands on, I want to solve these murders. I have a personal reason as well. in 1978 a girl named Janette Reynolds was murdered, and her murder has very deep personal value to me. Its haunted my family all these years, and I would love to be the one to bring her killer to justice....

Thank you very much for reading my story and for your comment. I greatly appreciate it. Have a wonderful day!!