I Havent Seen My First Love For 15 Years

When I was 15 I was seeing a bloke in secret as my family did not like him.
Wwe were very happy at the time.
When I was 17 I moved to the uk and have never seen him since.

2 weeks ago I found him on a site and we exchanged some lovely messages.

He is single and never married and I am not married either.
I have always missed him and always thourght about him and now after 15 years I feel sick in the pit of my stomach and cant stop thinking about him.

Why do I feel so lost and sad, this is really doing my brain in. I have never been like this over a bloke and I hate the fact that I feel like this because even though he has never married he may not feel like I do.

Thank you for reading I really needed to get this off my chest.
carrill carrill
31-35, F
Jan 11, 2013