The Epic Public MeltdownLast night- i changed my name. Ohhhh yea, the Lush no longer. Why? I've got my reasons. The term "Lush" means many things. The reason i chose the Lush name just means one thing= drunk girlie.
Today, i was doing my usual Tuesday thing- reading the New York Times magazine and what do i run into? A story about the infamous Cat Marnell.
Who's Cat Marnell? Cat M. is what I would be if someone would pay me to spend time on ep. She's a drinker, pill popper, advice giver. She's also managed to **** off tons of people with her posts. Oh, and did i mention her obsession with Edie Sedgwick?
While reading this article- about how Marnell quit her job for xoJane magazine (they feckin loved her) because she just couldn't be bothered with meeting deadlines due to the fact that she rather be on a roof top searching for shooting stars while smoking some angel dust- i thought to myself, "wtf? don't we all on ep throw our **** out there for free?".
This online mag paid her to write about beauty advice but, why did they keep her? Drama. Drama pays. She angered people with how she'd freely throw in her drug abuse and antics all over the interwebz.
Like, the author of the article- i felt jealousy. Here is someone making money off of.....well, being herself. Meanwhile, i spend my time on this site picking fights and pretty much letting you guys comment on my meltdowns. My thoughts. My secrets.
So, i run off and do my research. I must know everything there is to know about Cat. What do i find? I find angry commentators that are disgusted that she's paid to.....simply write about her wreck of a life. Cause god forbid they own up and be role models to their kids. Why are kids even reading Cat's posts?
I find a group of people that support her. Love her. Worship the very ground she spits on just because, "someone gets me!".
I find an industry willing to pay to take pics of her apartment. An apartment that she has stated, "looks like any drug addicts place". No furniture. Blacked out windows. Drug baggies all over the place. "But the readers will love it!". Of course, they'd love it. Why wouldn't they? Who doesn't want to watch the slow self destruction of some famous person? We as a society, eat that stuff up.
But, most of all, i found la
Cat M. is a hilarious and a brilliant writer. She throws in all emotion when posting something. Granted, most of it are drunk/drug infused rants. But, who doesnt throw in all emotion when they arent stopped by inhibitions? Of course she pissed off a few people. Those are the very same people that believe that no one should openly write about drug use. Or abusing alcohol. Those are the very same ones that say "you should be a role model!"
But, who in **** says they want to be a role model when they grow up?
So, i finish my research. And I'm glad im not "lush" anymore and im glad i didnt have Cat's job. Because keeping up with that persona wouldve killed me. No one would've been so interested in her if they weren't waiting for her next melt down.
Cat's story should be taken as a learning tool. THAT lifestyle, isnt "cool". It's not "funny". But, it is important for everyone to see pass the funny quotes that are typed out during some drunken/high night.
Cat M. got paid to have public meltdowns and now she's in rehab.....again.
But, she got a book deal! ....Should really make you rethink how society works.
************EDIT: Being that Charmy cant seem to read straight due to his shot taking and possible weed intake here's an edit. This story is not about my public meltdown. It's about ALL public meltdowns. You taking notes Charmy? ........yeah, good.
Specifically, It's about Cat M.'s meltdown. And, it was titled as such due to the article i read.
You done taking notes are you still taking shots?