Why Cant I Live With Myself?

Its so strange. It seems like a disorder of some sort- but I dont know, I never did check with the doctors. For some reason, I feel so bad about myself. Character wise and appearances. Atleast character is something you can change- but appearances are something your born with. Sometimes I see myself as something so ugly, but then other times I appreciate what I have and dont mind I just think of myself as free. I dont know why and I can help it. This is my first time doing this so I may stumble with my words. Many say Im attractive but for some reason, deep down, I feel hideous. It sounds like a pathetic trauma, but really, for those that have been in this situation will understand how demotivating and rotten a feeling it is. I never was one to care so much, but over the years it has grown worse.
DownsideUp DownsideUp
18-21
Jul 16, 2010