After My Harsh Childhood

When i was 5 my stepdad at the time decided upon himself to take advantage of me (you get the story). It ended when i was 10 when my mum finally got rid of him for being a wh0re anyway. It disrupted my childhood as you can imagine and in my teenage years i kind of reclined into this shell of shyness and worthlessness. I knew i needed help because i didn't want this man ruining my life. That was my first bit of hope. I started to see a counsellor at the school and she was so understanding of how i felt and told me that the only way to move forward is to confront my past, accept it and get rid of the worries. My worry was that my younger brother and sister are this man's kids and still saw them at a weekend. I didn't want him doing to them what he did to me. So because my fears for my siblings was a lot stronger than how i felt about myself, i finally had the courage to tell her why i feel the way i do. The police had to get involved and it all came out. A weight had been lifted. I felt hope for the future. Even though this man never got prosecuted and still walks free to this day, i believe that him knowing that people know, has prevented him from doing anything to anyone ever again. My younger siblings still don't know and i don't think i will ever tell them. Having hope has kind of saved my personality or maybe even my life. Without that, i don't know where i'd be today.

SammyCymru SammyCymru
22-25, F
2 Responses Mar 27, 2009

wow sorry this happened. glad you are on your way back. and you helped it not to happen to the other kids.

That's great you stepped up for your younger siblings and who knows what other kids. That must have taken a lot of courage to speak out. I am glad you found hope.