Must I elaborate? ....... Well duh of course!! haha .... I didn't so much cry. In fact I don't think I can over him anymore. I did however get a sense of depression and I suddenly snapped out of it and closed the book in which they were placed. It read something like "you are my best friend ......" "I thought about you today and your smile ....." and all the other white space (or in other words, words that I skipped over). It hurts to think that at one time in my life we were so happy together. We enjoyed each others company, flirted *ridiculously* before you made boyfriend and girlfriend official. Makes you smile. That is why I can't cry over him. Oh don't get me wrong, I miss him like crazy!!! And I have to deal with the fact that he is right there arms length away when he comes over to hangout with my roommates and I can't touch him or get near him or sometimes even say anything to him. And it hurts. But I smile, because we had something. And just because he acts like he moved on, I know that deep down he still thinks about me. And he can deny all he wants, but its the way he looks at me, the way he smiles, and the way he tries to avoid me. Although maybe I am just full of myself and hoping for all that. *shrugs* Oh well. the point is, I smile because it happened and I can hold on to the happy memories.
LosingIt LosingIt
22-25, F
1 Response Mar 29, 2007

i like how you think but what about if you thought he missed you but it turns out he really is over you because he found a new best friend to replace you with?