And I Call Her Mom...

i was dating her son but i had only met her once or twice. she was very beautiful and had a beautiful home and she was very kind. the sort of person that you just like immediately, you know. my guy was out of town and i lost my phone so we werent able to talk that day nor was i able to talk to anyone else. i suppose it was God who brought us together that night because she showed up at my door exactly when i needed someone. it was about 1 am and i didnt live in a good area of the city at all. i was about to commit suicide and was there all alone writing my goodbye letters. turns out, she needed someone as badly as me so we talked. i was able to open up to her immediately about things i hadnt shared with anyone before. it took so much pressure away. i left my apartment and went out of town to live with my boyfriend for a couple of months. we moved back here together to live with her and ive gotten to know her really well over the last 7 or 8 months. although he is not here, she was kind enough to let a near stranger live in her home. she is very angelic like that. we have sort of similar backgrounds of abuse and are very similar in our ways of thinking and doing things. she has shown me a whole new world outside the one i had become accustomes to and felt i could never leave. she renewed my Faith in God and shown me absolute unconditional love. she suprises me everyday still, that im still wanted and can stay lol. i can talk to her about whatever i want to, whenever i need to and be completely honest about my feelings. i have agoraphobia and she takes the best care of me. as long as shes with me, i can go places and not feel afraid. shes opened doors i never thought id be able to look into. my own mom died from AIDS in 2004 and it left me devastated and relieved at the same time. mom is the exact opposite of her, the kind of mother i always wanted. im not abused and she makes sure i go to therapy every week and take my meds. i have a puppy and i have this laptop to use as a journal and EP. she even told me about this site. shes the greatest woman alive and i love her very much. i call her mom...