An Ironic Blessing

I was diagnosed with schizotypal personality disorder back in 2005 after a pretty nasty suicide attempt . . . I had another breakdown in January 2012 (for complete story please see the first story I wrote on EP entitled "My Story") and a couple month after I got out of the hospital I decided to be brave and make an effort to better understand myself and this disease . . . I googled it . . . so here I am googling a mental illness and what's the first thing that comes up . . . this website . . . LMAO . . . yeah this place is pretty nuts . . . but I wouldn't change a thing . . . ironically . . . this particular illness leaves one with a low capacity for close social friendships . . . an inability to get close to people due to trust and paranoia issues . . . there's alot more to it then that but that's the gist of it . . . so here I am making cyber friendships . . . an SPD has to start somewhere I guess . . . and what better place then EP . . . I want to thank those that I call friends . . . who are on my friends list . . . for taking the time and effort to friend me and interact with me . . . along with the meds it has been such a transformative experience for me . . . and truely a blessing . . . an interestingly ironic blessing.