I Gave 3 Of My Children Up For Adoption

well i really did not want to.the state took my children because i was at a point in my life that i was not bien a good mother.i was extremly depressed and my house was filthy.needless to say on october 31st 2008 my then 3yr old daughter somehow got up and slept walked outside,the police found her because like a idiot i didnt even know she was gone because i didnt hear anything,needless to say the police came to tell me they had her and finding my house in that horible condition took her immediatly,then went later in the day to get my 5yr old from school and my 2 yr old fro my friends..i fought and did  everything that the courts wanted but the courts new due to foster care that they didnt hink id be able to ever handle the kids and they were rite so i signed off i had a goodbye visit and thats it.it hasnt even bien a year yet (since my goodbye visit) and i hate this soooo much.and unfortunatly now because i got my life together,but then i think ''what for'' i will not see 1 of them for eleven years and so on,i dont know what to do im on disability im at the house alot and feel literally sik and my heart and stomache literally hurt when i think of them idk what to do i dont think i can do this.
nolimitachavis nolimitachavis
31-35
5 Responses Aug 8, 2010

I know its been a few months since you posted, but I have to ask you something. I've been through a situation almost just like yours.my children were took from me over a year ago because of depression. I have no one to talk to, do you have a email address I could talk to you?

I know its been a few months since you posted, but I have to ask you something. I've been through a situation almost just like yours.my children were took from me over a year ago because of depression. I have no one to talk to, do you have a email address I could talk to you?

I hope the Children are doing well.

I have had this dream where I was walking in this area and I saw this seagrape tree with a bunch of green seagrapes on it so I said to bad they are not ripe. Then I looked under the tree and there were these beautiful big golden onions they were so pretty that I had no choice to but to pick them up of the ground. They had no root or anything all I did was pick them up and was saying to my sisters and their neigbour how pretty they were and I don't even like onion. So I told my sister the other day bout my dream and she said she had a simliar dream about onions too. I found that strange but both of us are baffled at our dreams we would like to know if anyone out there can please tell us what this means.

Well my dear it is not about you. I was in the children's home before they took great care of us, but there is nothing like a mother's touch an love. yes the government may have taken them but you definitely are not making any effort to really get those kids back. anyything is possible with God. Just nmake up your mind to make any changes wheater it be man, or drugs you have to get them back and appologive to them and love them with the love of Christ.