Been Thinking to Much

I have been thinking to much about this guy and he just makes me so depressed he says he loves me but every singles thing on the pc you can find him on and he is very active on, lost a child a few months ago yes i am old lol. But this guy is stuck in my heart and i am having a hard time getting him out of my head. I have a 15 year old daughter turning 16 and can not afford to do the party she wishes to have then Christmas is coming ..I have all i can do just to keep heat and Electric on .

I feel I can not handle this much more