I Don't Like It

I am supposed to be what is considered manic depressant or something like that. I'm supposed to be taking medicine for it and blah blah blah but I choose not to. I randomly get depressed and I know that it affects those close to me. Sometimes I have a reason for my depression because I have many friends who have lost their lives but other times it just randomly happens. It's just this feeling of near absolute emptiness and I can't stand it. I don't cry or get suicidal I just..well I call it my hollowing out point. I can't help when it happens. The majority of the time I just have to sit and let it pass..the medicine just makes things worse and I worry I'm affecting my mate..

HanaNoMizu HanaNoMizu
26-30, F
6 Responses Dec 4, 2008

Its a crappy feeling but i've learned that there are apparently a lot of things wrong with my brain ;p

I can kinda understand. Sometimes when im depressed i feel completely without purpose. like my heart is being shocked and happiness is too thick for my lungs. It really sucks. I dont take medication though.

Shut up! Jerk! Emotional Deprivation and Erectile Disfunction are 2 different issues with the same acronym ;p

erectile dysfunction... lolz neither of which bother me

The E.D. and my depression are seperate matters love.

im all good baby.. Your ED has no effect on us.. I promise