I Don't Like It
I am supposed to be what is considered manic depressant or something like that. I'm supposed to be taking medicine for it and blah blah blah but I choose not to. I randomly get depressed and I know that it affects those close to me. Sometimes I have a reason for my depression because I have many friends who have lost their lives but other times it just randomly happens. It's just this feeling of near absolute emptiness and I can't stand it. I don't cry or get suicidal I just..well I call it my hollowing out point. I can't help when it happens. The majority of the time I just have to sit and let it pass..the medicine just makes things worse and I worry I'm affecting my mate..