Always So Keen For Winter At First

I love winter when it begins. I am always just dying for the first snowfall. I love the beauty of that pure white blanket of snow. When everything is still and suddenly angelic. When the earth is cleansed almost entirely of scents until the springtime. It is peaceful and the air is crisp and fresh. There are so many things that I enjoy about winter, but depression is not one of them. I find that eventually, partway through the winter I start to get more and more depressed. I think it is because of a few things.

1. I don't get out as much. It's cold and I don't feel as much like I want to go outside.

2. It's overcast. There is so much less sun in the winter which is not good for my morale. It means less vitamin D and less health.

3. I get less exercise. I can't go out and run in the winter like I can in the summer. It hurts my lungs and it's too icy anyway. I don't like treadmills and i'm not a fan of jiggling in a gym for all to see.

4. The days are shorter. Because I have a tendency to stay up way too late, I also tend to sleep in. That means that when the days get shorter in the winter time, I have even less daylight than most because I sleep more of it away. (I have another story that explains my odd sleep behavior a bit better)

With all those things combined, I can begin to feel quite isolated and lonely. I can also feel just unhealthy, fat and unattractive because of my lack of exercise. None of that helps with my mental health at all. I wish that I could solve this problem, because it is ruining my enjoyment of winter far too much. I've managed to get a lot further into winter without getting depressed now though. When I was 16 I felt like I was really depressed for the majority of the year rather than for just a month or two. My mental state has improved a fair bit since then, but it is still quite a problem nonetheless. Who likes feeling miserable all the time? I think it has to be one of the toughest battles that people face.
Veryrandomgirl8 Veryrandomgirl8
22-25, F
Jan 23, 2013