Shelter Me....Sometimes life is hard, unkind and it feels like we never seem to catch a break. We have no control over what we are dealt only how we deal with those
things. I too find myself overwhelmed at times never wanting others to see any weakness, sadness or emotional struggles that we all face now and then. I know God never gives us more than we can handle but right now it's hard to believe that and I cling to that fact and I know He is there for me, supporting me.
Being human with all my flaws, I still crave the love and strength of a strong man, my safe harbour in the storm, my soft place to land, someone who at the end of the day will shelter me and protect me from all the the world can throw at me. I rarely, if ever, am allowed to let this facade down with someone and to just breathe and feel safe in their presence. What would it feel like to be cradled and cherished, protected and cared for? To have that vulnerablity with another person, and perhaps allow them to help carry the load for awhile. I know if he needed this from me I'd have no problem being all this for him, because that is simply who I am.....a woman with a heart that doesn't stop giving.
I am also aware that one can be "strong" with no real outlet for only so long before the mask begins to crack. I am praying that I find him before mine shatters....until then I'll keep praying, seeking wisdom, guidence, patience and strength.....day by day.