Hardest Thing In My Life ...
It's funny what you consider challenging.
Making a marriage work - being willing to sacrifice everything to keep this afloat - that is what I considered challenging.
Having your husband give you and your child up for drinking and drugs - that topped everything on my list.
I think a little piece of my soul, and my heart, shattered that day - not for me ... more for my child.
This is the single most hardest thing I have every done. I hurt, I'm angry, I'm scared, I'm lonely -- I'm broken.
I want to be so string for my son - be stoic - hide the fact that I am human because he needs his MOTHER first and foremost.
I can not move on .... I can not get through this. I am trying to release my anger in walking, working, cleaning, etc. It's not working - so each person I end up talking to - if we talk emotions - I just start spouting this out.
I feel like I need to stay FAR away from all humans .... if not, you'll probably be hit by my shrapnel.