Last summer I met this amazing guy through my best friend. They were actually cousins. Well I fell for him fast. He was handsome and charming and just everything I ever thought I wanted. The only problem was is that he had just gotten out of a four year relationship. So I guess it is fair to say he was on the rebound. Really I should of known better than to get involved.
He had some health issues that were quite serious I learned shortly into our relationship. He had a problem with blood clots in his leg and his arteries were too badly damaged for the doctors to do an angioplasty and put in stents. It turned out they had no choice but to do a below the knee amputation. I took time off work and stayed with him during and after his surgery. He was hospitalized for like three weeks through this whole horrible ordeal. I loved him so much that it didn't matter. I wanted to be by his side and maybe even marry him someday.
His ex started showing up at the hospital. See the thing is she has money and I am a single parent. Also I work full time and she does not work at all. She had two things I didn't and that was all the time in the world and money. He was sent home from the hospital and within a week he was having complications from the surgery so I drove him to the ER where they admitted him back into the hospital. The ex girlfriend found out he was back in the hospital and so she started showing up again. I went to the hosptial every night after work for weeks the first time and stayed with him through his next admission to the hospital.
Three days before he was due to be discharged he called me at work and dumped me. He dumped me to be with her. He was very mean and hateful about the whole thing and told me that she (the Ex) was going to be taking care of him when he got home. I was devastated. The reason they broke up in the first place according to what he told me is because she slept with his best friend. So anyhow I had always heard they had a very turbulent and toxic realtionship. So shortly after all this I guess a few weeks later they started having troubles and he called me. I didn't answer my phone though and he finally after a few weeks gave up on calling me. I have talked to him since. I decided not long ago to call him and let him know I had forgiven him and that I wished him well.
He is still with her though he has told me they are still having troubles. I could never be with him again in that way but I just wanted him to know that he was forgiven. His health has continued to go downhill and I just feel like if anything happens to him I don't want him to feel like I hate him. In fact this may sound strange but I still love him I just can never be with him again. Does this make sense to anyone? I know it sounds crazy but I don't wish any harm to him.