So Young And So ConfusedWhen I was very young both my parents worked in the city and commute 3hrs + a day. I was pretty much raised by my grandparents until I was about 9 yrs old. That was when my younger sister was born and my mom decided to quit her job and stay at home with her.
My parents never really sat me down to explain anything to me.....so a lot of this I had to figure out on my own.
I didn't understand why we stopped going out on weekends and stopped going out for dinner......these were the only things I shared with my parents
the following years were very hard for me, especially at that age when clothes and things started to become important
all my friends had nice clothes. I had hand-me downs from my aunt that didnt fit and were completely out of style.
my sister had hand me downs to.....but from cousins that were rich and close to her age....so her clothes were still practically new
We had a few really rough Christmas's where I didn't get anything
and we never really had much food.....my dad hated giving my mom money for anything.....i remember her even having to budget back to school supplies from her grocery money....but my dad always had money for golfing and hunting and fishing and beer and drugs........
my dad would always be so vocal how we're 'costing him money again....'
If only my parents actually talked to me about things, maybe I would have understood more
Kids used to make fun of my clothes
I didn't get to go out with everyone else because we had no money
we never really had any vacations, when my friends were always going to florida or to the east coast or niagara falls or someplace
when i was 16 my parents made me get a job. once i was working it was pretty much my own responsibility to take care of myself. clothes, shampoo, conditioner, make up, deodorant, everything I had to buy for myself.
I think just their whole attitude.......I was a big inconvenience for them. a waste of money. My dad never let me forget about that......
It's like they couldn't wait till I was old enough to work so they wouldn't have to support me anymore.