I Cant Deal With Her Anymore!

Ever since I can remember, I was always the one to help my mom. I have a twin sister, an older sister, and a younger brother. I never understood though why I was always the one treated the worse. Im pretty sure my mom has ocd. When ever I cleaned something, she would always tell me to redo it, she would even attack me if I didnt. She has pushed me down stairs, pulled my fingers back, slapped me, ect. She was always verbally abusive too. But I was use to that so that never phased me.. When I turned 16, I got my first job.. I was very excited to start growing up and paying for my own stuff. BUT it wasnt all that great.. My manager who was 28 at the time took my virginity at the back of the store.. He raped me. And recorded it to use against me if I ever told anyone. I was so emotionally torn. I had NO ONE at the time. But I dealt with it because I needed a job. He continued to do that to me for about 6 months until my mother found a text on my phone.. Went through all the court process and he ended up get years in prison. I had to do with chain texts getting spread about high school about me, I had people harrassing me in high school, and I had an ex boyfriend telling everyone I cheated on him with a 28 year old man. I wanted to take my life many times. I couldnt handle it. I had NOONE. My father is around but doesnt say much.. Now I am 19. I still live at home because I go to school full time and work the days I can. I am called a fatass *****, ****, f***ing ****, ect EVERYDAY. Those are my names. I am reminded how I ruined a mans life because I put him in prison because I am a **** who opens my legs.. She doesnt physically abuse me that much anymore. She will slap me here and there but honestly I rather be beat then be called names everyday. I have no one to run to in my town because I am know as a **** who ruined a mans life, and I have no other family by me. I have to sit in the hallway all the time because my mom wont let me in my room or anywhere in the house. I can only shower really late even though I have to get up at 5am every morning. I try my hardest to ignore her but I cant. I truely wish I had friends for help...