Bad Bad Bad Trip On Weed
Okay, well i had been smoking weed since i was 14, not heavy but at least once a week till i was 18. So this one time me and my gf were smoking cones, I had one...then right away i felt it hit me hard!
I felt brain dead, my heart was pounding so fast i felt like i had just ran a marathon, I freaked out.
I said to my gf PLEASE HELP ME PLEASE PLEASE, but it took forever to come out of my mouth, it took forever for me to be able to say the next word. i felt like i had to wait a thousand years befor i could say or do anything, SO I FREAKED OUT, i tryed to fight the feeling, i tryed to pull out off it, i felt like i was going to dye, so i the next words i said was I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!! i was saying my good byes, my gf didnt know what was happening, she was high and having a gd trip. i started crying i ran inside and woke her mother up i tould her i was high and that my heart was going to expoled, i felt like i new the meaning of life...i truly though i was dying i felt my self slip away, It was my thoughts that were scarying me.
I was laying down on my gfs mothers bed, i said call an ambulance!!!
Everything was repeting, i knew what was going to happen, Everything i did, didnt happen for a reson, it just happend, no matter how hard i tryed to pull out of this i felt like i couldnt and that i was dying, i was so scared, i didnt want to die, I kept comming back but then i couldnt stay there,
the ambulance came, thay asked me Questions but i just tould them, that I had smoked weed and now i feel like my heart is going to explode and that im dying, the man, was trying to keep me carm i grabed his hand and i tould him DO YOUR JOB DONT LET ME DIE PLEASE!!!
we got into the ambo and i thought i hurd my mum and my grandpearents saying goodbye to me on the raidio telling me they love me and that its okay . and i went to hospital, then i felt parranoied, like the nurse was laughing at me, i screamed at them and said SHUT UP!!!! STOP IT!!! My gf came with me, she was the only person i felt that could save me, i felt that she kept me in the right place, she made me carm, but then it will come back, and everything would repeat, i kept telling my gf to never to this again, i kept thinking i wish i had never had done this....
Now Everyday i think about that night- not one day have i not thourght about it...
Please if you read this! Dont do drungs! some people can handle it some people carnt...ur better off not knowing... xxooxx