I spent this past Valentine's Day with my boyfriend. He's great. He's really nice to me, he's accepting, he's caring... He's wonderful. There's a problem, though. I'm a lesbian. I don't know why I did it. I'm so ashamed. Maybe I just wanted to feel "normal" for a bit. Maybe one of my personalities actually does love him. I felt so guilty the whole day because as I held his hand I was thinking of her.