Such Guilt

I spent this past Valentine's Day with my boyfriend. He's great. He's really nice to me, he's accepting, he's caring... He's wonderful. There's a problem, though. I'm a lesbian. I don't know why I did it. I'm so ashamed. Maybe I just wanted to feel "normal" for a bit. Maybe one of my personalities actually does love him. I felt so guilty the whole day because as I held his hand I was thinking of her.
PyroPyrate PyroPyrate
18-21, F
10 Responses May 10, 2011

Still on the same guy since last year? Or you have moved on and with a gal by now? If not geez you are definitely straight after all ;-)

That is... Possibly the worst scenario... I'm so sorry about that :(

Its better than spending Valentines day or in my case your "birthday" finding out that your first love cheated on you, and your best friend died in a car accident.

Oh I certainly will not do that lol and thank you for that ♥ It just sucks that I'm so shy because I've been putting off breaking up with him for about a month now XD

((Hugs)) You can't help the way you feel. I've learnt for myself that you are who you are.<br />
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Embrace it, enjoy it, and above all be true to yourself. <br />
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Don't go too far down a road that's not for you.............I think you know what I mean :)

One of my personalities is an FTM so I know how you feel. Are you FTM or MTF?

I was a "Best Man" twice, and a "God Father" twice - you only get one God father if you are a girl, and these both were; and I'm Trans! How bad is that :(

Thank you, though.

I guess so, I just hate lying and hiding.

If you both had a good time, don't beat yourself up over it. Better for both of you than being alone on Valentine's Day? x