My First Crush

My schoolgirl crush was on Miss Baxter, my science teacher when I was taking my O levels.
She was so clever, a brilliant teacher and very very beautiful. She had long blonde hair, blue eyes and a dazzling smile. At least that's how I remember her now some forty years on. Perhaps I'm viewing her through rose tinted glasses.
Shakespeare said the past is another country, they do things differently there. I was so confused by my feelings; I'm not sure I even knew what a lesbian was back then! All I knew that I adored her. I began to find excuses to hang around after class to be with her. I look back with embarrassment how gauche I was. I tried to pay her compliments; 'that's a pretty dress miss', 'I like your perfume miss', and 'your hair looks nice miss'. I would nearly burst with pride if she praised my work or even if she smiled at me as we passed in the corridor.
I was just planning my Xmas gift when she left. It was sudden. I was crushed; she never said goodbye.
I sulked in science for the rest of the year. I never saw her again.
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May 10, 2012