Need Some One That Understands

I dont know where to start....
Its not something I had control over. I dont know what happened. I have questions. I have fears. I feel so hurt. The one I loved, the one I was supposed to marry, didn't care at all. The one I had devoted my life to. The one that I shared my inner most secrets. The one that made me laugh. The one made me the happiest woman in the world. The one that held me in the night, kissed my neck and told me he would never leave. I miscarried on Valetines Day. What a crappy thing. I cried all day, everyday for so long. I couldn't be at home. With all the baby things. We had, had plans and names. I had carried are child inside me for awhile. I lost a part of me that day, that I haven't been able to get over. I am no longer with the man that I was pregnant by. The day I lost the baby, I lost myself. I couldn't put forth the effort in a relationship with a man that didn't care about the child he had lost. How could someone be that cold. Him having a child himself, should know the meaning of a loss like that. How can I get over this? How can I move on? I need some one else understands, and the one person that should have understood....turned his back on me.
MissArmyWife MissArmyWife
18-21, F
1 Response Jul 24, 2010

i feel for you so much, i had a similar expierience myself.