I Miss My Baby Boy
I had a miscarriage in July of 2006 when i was five weeks pregnant. I was elated to find out i was expecting again. My due date was September 30th 2008. Everything was going good until May 3rd when an ultrasound found no heartbeat. I was admitted into the hospital on Monday May 5th to induce labor. I was five months pregnant. Fifteen hours later I had our baby boy. We got to hold him and look at him and set up his burial.
I may sound crazy, but I have no living children and just the fact that I got to labor and deliver my little boy meant so much to me. Seeing him and holding him gave me the closure I've been wanting since my first miscarriage. Even though it has been a long road, and still more to come, I am very greatful for the time I did have with my son.
I got to see him move on ultrasounds, hear his heartbeat and feel him move inside me and finally got to hold him in my arms. Even though he was not born alive, I am still greatful for having him
My heart goes out to all who have had a miscarriage. No matter when it happens, whether it's at two months or five, it is still an experience that will never compare to anything else.
A lot of people downplay miscarriages like it was not a real baby. I heard my son's heartbeat for the first time at five weeks. And for anyone to say that it wasn't a real baby is just insane. Don't let anyone downplay your pain. We have all lost children and it is a mother's worst nightmare. It's just a shame that we have all been through it. God bless!