Maybe It Was a Miscarriage

i don't know if i did have a miscarriage but I'm starting to think tat it was. I usually don't miss my periods but i finally did once when i barely married my husband. We thought tat i was pregnant and took a test but it came out negative. I was bummed because i really wanted a kid. Later tat same month tat i missed my period almost at the end of the month i started having back pains and cramps. I know tat i don't get cramps during PMS or back pain. I never had problems wit my period. After like two days i started bleeding, i thought tat i just had a late period. I didn't have tat much pain. I went to use the restroom and when i pulled down my pantie on my pad there was the blob thing. I didn't know what it was so i told my hubby. He saw it too and it didn't really had blood on it much but it looked like flesh to me. I was scared and I cried. He said that maybe its just some clot of blood. I knew he was scared too because i noe tat he wants to have a kid more than i do. We didn't know what it was so we just threw it away. It was bothering the whole day because i wanted to know if it was a miscarriage or not. He finally went to ask his mom and she said tat it's probably not. After tat i have missed my period only once. But every month since then tat been happening. I never found out if it was a miscarriage and every time tat it came out and i see it i would want to cry. Ever since then i have been having a lot of menstrual pain during my period. I'm still sad about all those time because yesterday it happened again. I want a baby and have been trying to conceive but now I'm starting to think tat i can never have a baby.

gencindy gencindy
18-21
1 Response Feb 17, 2009

I really feel for you.<br />
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Way back in 1973, when I was sixteen, I fell pregnant by a boy everyone said was no good.<br />
I didn't care, I was besotted and was devastaed when he ended up in jail.<br />
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In spite of it all, I really wanted the baby and started getting clothes and so forth together.<br />
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I was just into the fourth month when I miscarried.<br />
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I was rushed into hospital in the early hours of the morning - and put onto the maternity ward. That was so cruel.<br />
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Afterward, everyone kept telling me it was all for the best, that I had years ahead of me in which to have babies. That was true, but I wanted THAT baby.<br />
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Come March, it'll be thirty-six years since that miscarriage and I have two terrific sons, but I never forget the pain of the loss.<br />
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I think you need to see a doctor, my dear, find out whether you have a medical problem.<br />
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Meantime, if you feel you need to talk, you can message me.<br />
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I'm Meggi51.