It was a Saturday night. Like many other nights I was hitting lines with my boyfriend at the time Ryan. The gals called and wanted us to go out. I haven’t seen them for a while. Coco my best friend informed me she had ecstasy and wanted to take them later.Ryan wanted to stay in but usually cocaine makes make anxious. We hit the night clubs. An hour before closing the gals took their pills. It was 3 hours since my last hit. All the girls ended up at Coco’s. I was started to come down. I could see Ryan wasn’t having much fun and wanted to go home. More people started coming in. It was one of those moments when you’re chasing a high. I was a little drunk and didn’t want the party to end. I eventually convinced Ryan to stay and take a pill. At first we were reluctant b.c of the coke early. The room was glowing with disco lights and the music was intense. I didn’t want to go home so we each took a pill. Another hour went by. Everyone was dancing, messaging etc. I was getting upset and wanted to feel the same high. I was a little mad that Ryan wasn’t paying attention to me. I popped another one. I couldn’t move. I was by the stereo all night. My friends would come by and check up on me. I told them to leave me alone. It was at morning people were leaving. My girlfriends ended up lying next to me. I was rumbling words. Don’t remember what I said specificlly. Finally Ryan said "come on you had enough I’m taking you home". We got into the car. It was now day light. I was short of breath and my vision blurry. I kept telling him to drive faster. My head was hurting so much. We got home and I was pale as hell. He made me drink water but I couldn’t take any thing down. My fingers curled up. Needless to say we were both scared. He said I’m taking you to the hospital. I’m sure the ride was only 7 mins which seemed like a lifetime. He was driving and my head was on his lap with my fingers curled up. I couldn’t move them. Inside I truly thought I would end up brain dead. My whole body was frozen I couldn’t panic. I was slipping in and out of conscious. It was like an out of body experience. I could see a warm light above. Somehow I know it was heaven and I felt safe but was fighting to stay alive. I asked the lord to help save me. As Ryan rush me in the hospital this was what I remembered. · Oxygen mask as a nurse trying to put it on me · Doctors and nurses pulling on my clothes · Doctors say “I’m going to give you a shoot of morphine” · Someone telling Ryan it was too late · Ryan yelling at me to wake up · Ryan shaking me in and out of conscious · The doctors asking him to leave · More doctors coming in · Hearing the doctor voice "I'm giving you more morphine" · Ryan yelling at me over and over · A tube put down the throat · Later my body filling up with mud (they were pumping my body) Somehow it ended. I woke up in a hospital with Ryan by my side. My doctor said I flat line twice. They had to jumpstart my heart (which I didn’t remember). He said he thought his last shoot of morphine kill me. Said I was very lucky to be alive. I thank all the doctors and nurses who save my life and I especially thank Ryan. I’m so sure if he wasn’t in the room shaking me I would have never made it.