Ruined Music

I was in love with this guy for a long time. He knew it. Finally he liked me back, but his best friend wanted to ask me out, so he stepped aside and asked another girl he liked. A few months later, I was single again, after a painful and messy breakup. This guy I loved, though, was still with the other girl, who was my best friend, incidentally. And suddenly, those feelings all came back. I was single, I'd dated the wrong guy, I wanted the right one. He realized that I was even more in love with him than I'd ever been, but he had a girlfriend he liked now, so again Fate had intervened. Around that time I discovered the song Sweetest Goodbye, by Maroon 5. It described my feelings perfectly: Where you are seems to be As far as an eternity Outstretched arms open hearts And if it never ends then when do we start? I’ll never leave you behind Or treat you unkind I know you understand And with a tear in my eye Give me the sweetest goodbye That I ever did receive Pushing forward and arching back Bring me closer to heart attack Say goodbye and just fly away When you comeback I have some things to say How does it feel to know you never have to be alone When you get home There must be someplace here that only you and I could go So I can show you how i Dream away everyday Try so hard to disregard The rhythm of the rain that drops And coincides with the beating of my heart I’ll never leave you behind Or treat you unkind I know you understand And with a tear in my eye Give me the sweetest goodbye That I ever did receive Pushing forward and arching back Bring me closer to heart attack Say goodbye and just fly away When you comeback I have some things to say How does it feel to know you never have to be alone When you get home There must be someplace here that only you and I could go So I can show you how I feel I loved the song. I listened to it a lot during that difficult time. Just now, it randomly popped up in Windows Media Player. My hand was poised to change the track, but I couldn't. I was frozen solid. A chill went through my whole body, and suddenly I was crying again, curled up in my computer chair, unable to turn off that horrible song. It just reminded me of everything that happened all those months ago, in the dead of winter, when I loved someone who had long since stopped loving me. The song's ruined now. Anybody else have a similar experience?
sondosia sondosia
18-21, F
3 Responses Aug 5, 2007

See I don't like my things i like, like songs, ruined like that, of course, so I find it's a safer experience to, instead of pinning the song to myself and lingering over the pain of the experience, pin the bad feelings to the power of the experience and let it just carry them away like a little paper boat on the bay (the song is the bay...)

I can relate totally. However, remember that no one in life can hurt you unless you allow it first, and also that in time he will just become a faded memory, and you too will meet someone who can be even better than he could have ever been with you.

I had a VERY similar experience. Except the guy took my favourite song and always sang it to me. I just can't stand to hear it anymore....