March 28th, 2012 The Day I Will Remember Forever...

In September of 2011 we found out we were having another baby. Our first was born September 28th 2009, a beautiful, sweet, smart girl. We were soo excited to be having another baby. At our first ultrasound we took our daughter with us so she could see the baby. The day we found out we were having another baby girl was amazing as much as my fiance wanted a boy, I know deep down he was excited for another girl because of the love and relationship he has with our daughter. My pregancy was great. I had no issues. Every ultrasound we had and every doctor appt we had our little girl was growing perfectly. On March 27th, 2012 I had a routine dr appt. This was the day that everything started to go downhill. I hadn't felt the baby move much that day which was a little unusual. I went to my dr appt alone. When it came time to check the heartbeat there was nothing. The dr brought in the ultrasound just to be sure but I knew deep down we had lost her. I was 36 weeks and had a scheduled C-section on April 16th, 2012. I was 3 weeks away from having this precious baby girl in my arms. I called my fiance who rushed to the doctor to be with me. We than had to figure out what we were going to do. We decided to go with a C-section the next morning. We went home and told our parents and siblings. They all came over to start figuring out what we needed to do. My fiance and I were not thinking right and had no idea what we were really in store for the next morning. My brother and his wife went right into figuring out what needed to be done. They called the doctors and the maternity ward nurses to find out what the process would be. I am sooo greatful for them. I had no idea what would come after my C-section and either did my fiance.
It has been 3 weeks my scheduled C-section date has passed and every moment had been tough. The toughest has been trying to get my 2 and half year old to understand what this all means. She asks where baby Brayleigh is and when she will be out of my belly and when she can play with her.
mcveyte mcveyte
22-25, F
3 Responses Apr 19, 2012

I am extremely sorry. I stumbled across this site by chance. I too gave birth to a daughter that was stillborn in late November of last year. I have a three year old son. Four now and it continues to be so so very hard. I am looking for some online support because it is difficult to find those that understand the struggle that continues after this loss. God bless all the mothers with no child to take home and an empty hole in their hearts. I have a blog whereismybabysister@blogspot if anyone reading this needs some comfort or something.

It is amazing what our little ones come up with in times like these. Your blog is great I started reading from the beginning.

i'm so sorry for your loss. i also just delivered my stillborn baby girl. we don't have any answers as to what happened and are just trying to get through. i have a 14month old as well and even he senses something is wrong.

It is very difficult. My 2 1/2 year old knows something is up. Every once in awhile she will say something about Baby Brayleigh still being in my tummy or out of nowhere she will say that Baby Brayleigh is in Heaven. It is amazing to see what our new "normal" has become.

My sincere condolences on your loss. My warmest wishes to you and your family as you all try to heal.