I Had a Stillbirth
It was thursday the 12th november 2009, i was going to have my sweep as i was 9 days over due. I was really looking forward to having it because i thought i was going to go into labour soon after, the midwife came and she tried to find my babys heartbeat, at first i thought he must be in a arkward position but still after about 5 minutes there was still nothing, so i was rushed in to the hospital for a scan. I was hoping that everything would be ok but when i got my scan my worst fears has come true. He had died. I couldnt belive it at first, all i kept thinging was this dosent happen to people like me. A couple of hours later i was induced into labour, When i was pushing him out i was hoping he would cry and that the doctors where wrong but he didnt. When the doctors said "im so sorry" thats when i knew he wasnt alive. It took me and my husband a few hours to be able to see him but im so glad i did, he was so perfect. He weighed 9lbs 7onces which for me is a big baby considering my daughter who is 8 now was only 6lb 15onces. Two weeks after we buried our little boy lucas. Im still hurting and i think of him everyday.x
