Ava Was Born An Angel On 5/5/11

Here is my story: My husband and I went to the doctor for my 30 week appointment. The doctor wasn't able to find a heartbeat with the Doppler. They hurried me to get a sonogram and that's when our world came crashing down.. NO heartbeat and NO amniotic fluid. That night I was induced and had Ava at 5:44am 5/5/11. After I have been through this horribly indescribably traumatic emotional and physical pain, I feel nothing can hurt us. But I now find myself questioning WHY!!?? I keep trying to remind myself we can try again, and to stay positive. I also try and not cry to family, I know they are going through hell too, and I try and stay strong for them. Any words of encouragement will be greatly appreciated!
WhichWayIsUp WhichWayIsUp
26-30, F
2 Responses May 13, 2011

Thank you. (This is my story, I just lost my account)

First of all, I am so sorry for your loss! You are within a couple days of when I lost my little boy..I was 29 weeks, 4 days. Second of all, I know this is so fresh for you and definitely try to stay positive. I went to the library and took out books on grieving - specifically grieving the loss of a baby. That really helped. I am here if you want to talk...I still my little guy and always will. He would have been 2 now. We have a little girl now who will be 16 months. <br />
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Hang in there, CRY as often and as much as you want to, you will have days that will be harder than others, but take a moment to say, today was a good day. Little by Little you'll start to feel a little better. Praying for you-I know this is a difficult time for you.