I Had a Stillborn Baby
I just turned 18 and I have been through a lot in my life. I was 16 when I found out I was pregnant and my boyfriend would not let me tell anyone.
I went three months without telling anyone. I was only a Junior in high school, I was three months pregnant and being forced to keep my baby a secret for my boyfriends football career. While all along I kept all of my grades and continued to be on the National Honors Society. I did all I could to try and keep myself healthy for my babies sake. I told my boyfriend that I could not take it any longer and that I had to tell my parents. He told me that if I did he would break up with me... I told my mother and she was upset but she immediately held me and told me that everything was going to be alright.
I went for my first appointment and I heard my babies heartbeat! It was amazing. I took my mother and my best friend because the father did not want this. A week later I went for my first ultra-sound and thats when they told me that I was having a girl! That made my mother and I so excited! We went shopping immediately and bought pink everything!
At this point the father of the baby and I were talking and sorta together. My pregnancy went smoothly until about 37 weeks when I became very swollen and uncomfortable. My doctor told me that I could be enduced the next week if everything looked okay.
My doctor did an ultra-sound at 38 weeks and said that my baby only weighed 5 pounds and should stay in there a little longer of course I was upset but wanted the best for my baby girl.
It was April 16th when I started contracting. My mom, dad, and boyfriend rushed me to the hospital where they told me that i was only 3 cm dialated and that they would keep me over night. I listened to my daughters heartbeat all night and felt her moved. The next morning the 17th of April nothing changed. I was still 3 cm dialated and my contractions were the same. My baby girls heartbeat was strong and ranged from 175-165. I went home that day and ate ice cream and layed on the couch.
April 18, 2010 I woke up that morning fully in labor. I was so excited! My boyfriend raced to my house as I got dressed and the bags packed in the car. My mom, dad, me, and my boyfriend rushed to hospital as I layed in the backseat squeezing by boyfriends hand smiling and yelling in pain.
We arrived at the hospital and my boyfriend carried me in. My parents followed behind. We got to the delivery floor and they stuck me in a room all ready for a baby to arrive. The nurses that were in that day had me the day before and were also very excited for the arrival of my baby girl. They stuck the monitors on me and they couldn't seem to find her heartbeat. They didn't seem to worried and they said that they were going to bring the machine in. They turned on the machine and I saw my precious baby girl's heart not beating. I instantly freaked out! I told them to do something to save her anything at all. They tried sticking a lead on her head to see if they could find the slightest heartbeat... and they found nothing. My mom and dad and boyfriend instantly broke out in tears. I was shocked I kept saying that I felt her just move and that I knew she was okay.
I was 39 weeks and 2 days pregnant and was in labor for 16 hours and at 12:02 am on April 19th I delivered an 8 pound 6 & 3/4 ounce 21 inch long baby girl. I named her Kyndal Grace Leonard Foor. She was perfectly heathy and gorgeous as ever. She looked to perfect to be here. She had a little bubble on her one eye-lid in shape of a heart. I felt as if she was actually an angel. We got to spend a lot of time with her and take tons of pictures.
A true know in the umbilical cord took my baby's life. As I was contracting and she was moving down the knot tightened and took her life.
I will never forgive my doctor for not detecting the knot and sending me home when I was 3 cm dialated the night before.
Even though I am so young I have been through a lot. I am a mother and always will be a mother. I am no longer with Kyndal's father, because he abused me and I do not need that in my life.
I am going to college to become and ultra-sound tech and to help other parents with similar situations as mine. I go to a group now and the ladies in it are all way older than me and they all look at me as an inspiration. I just graduated this year from high school as top 15 in my class and as a proud mommy. Everything I do is for Kyndal and I do not want to disappoint her in anyway.
I love her with all my heart and I can not wait for the day to be with my baby girl once again. She is my everythin. <3
Mommy loves you so much Kyndal Grace<3
I went three months without telling anyone. I was only a Junior in high school, I was three months pregnant and being forced to keep my baby a secret for my boyfriends football career. While all along I kept all of my grades and continued to be on the National Honors Society. I did all I could to try and keep myself healthy for my babies sake. I told my boyfriend that I could not take it any longer and that I had to tell my parents. He told me that if I did he would break up with me... I told my mother and she was upset but she immediately held me and told me that everything was going to be alright.
I went for my first appointment and I heard my babies heartbeat! It was amazing. I took my mother and my best friend because the father did not want this. A week later I went for my first ultra-sound and thats when they told me that I was having a girl! That made my mother and I so excited! We went shopping immediately and bought pink everything!
At this point the father of the baby and I were talking and sorta together. My pregnancy went smoothly until about 37 weeks when I became very swollen and uncomfortable. My doctor told me that I could be enduced the next week if everything looked okay.
My doctor did an ultra-sound at 38 weeks and said that my baby only weighed 5 pounds and should stay in there a little longer of course I was upset but wanted the best for my baby girl.
It was April 16th when I started contracting. My mom, dad, and boyfriend rushed me to the hospital where they told me that i was only 3 cm dialated and that they would keep me over night. I listened to my daughters heartbeat all night and felt her moved. The next morning the 17th of April nothing changed. I was still 3 cm dialated and my contractions were the same. My baby girls heartbeat was strong and ranged from 175-165. I went home that day and ate ice cream and layed on the couch.
April 18, 2010 I woke up that morning fully in labor. I was so excited! My boyfriend raced to my house as I got dressed and the bags packed in the car. My mom, dad, me, and my boyfriend rushed to hospital as I layed in the backseat squeezing by boyfriends hand smiling and yelling in pain.
We arrived at the hospital and my boyfriend carried me in. My parents followed behind. We got to the delivery floor and they stuck me in a room all ready for a baby to arrive. The nurses that were in that day had me the day before and were also very excited for the arrival of my baby girl. They stuck the monitors on me and they couldn't seem to find her heartbeat. They didn't seem to worried and they said that they were going to bring the machine in. They turned on the machine and I saw my precious baby girl's heart not beating. I instantly freaked out! I told them to do something to save her anything at all. They tried sticking a lead on her head to see if they could find the slightest heartbeat... and they found nothing. My mom and dad and boyfriend instantly broke out in tears. I was shocked I kept saying that I felt her just move and that I knew she was okay.
I was 39 weeks and 2 days pregnant and was in labor for 16 hours and at 12:02 am on April 19th I delivered an 8 pound 6 & 3/4 ounce 21 inch long baby girl. I named her Kyndal Grace Leonard Foor. She was perfectly heathy and gorgeous as ever. She looked to perfect to be here. She had a little bubble on her one eye-lid in shape of a heart. I felt as if she was actually an angel. We got to spend a lot of time with her and take tons of pictures.
A true know in the umbilical cord took my baby's life. As I was contracting and she was moving down the knot tightened and took her life.
I will never forgive my doctor for not detecting the knot and sending me home when I was 3 cm dialated the night before.
Even though I am so young I have been through a lot. I am a mother and always will be a mother. I am no longer with Kyndal's father, because he abused me and I do not need that in my life.
I am going to college to become and ultra-sound tech and to help other parents with similar situations as mine. I go to a group now and the ladies in it are all way older than me and they all look at me as an inspiration. I just graduated this year from high school as top 15 in my class and as a proud mommy. Everything I do is for Kyndal and I do not want to disappoint her in anyway.
I love her with all my heart and I can not wait for the day to be with my baby girl once again. She is my everythin. <3
Mommy loves you so much Kyndal Grace<3
By:
kristinfoor4
Age:
18-21
,
Female
