I Had a Stillborn Baby
My name is Tina and I am 30 years old. I recently moved to Saratoga Springs NY in March 2008 with my fiance from Vermont in hopes of trying to build a foundation for ourselves and our future. Things started out wonderful with the move and we enjoyed the area and our careers. towards the middle of May I began not felling well with alot of abdominal pain and could feel a lump in the lower part of my abdomen. Feeling this prompted me to go to the ER after work. After under going many test I was taken to have an ultra sound to make sure that everything was okay and in place, well during the ultra sound the doctor said to me that the lump I was feeling was actually the top of my babies head and that I was about 17 weeks. I couldn't believe it!! I spent most of my 20's thinking that I was unable to have children because I had tried so hard to have them and nothing became of it. Of course I have never been regular with my cycle and such SO of course it made it more difficult.
I called on the following Monday to scheduled an appointment with my OBGYN and the only opening they had was two weeks out. So I sat and waited wondering if everything was okay even though I was told at the ER that everything looked good. Well two weeks later I went to my appointment and sat through all the blood work, questions and tests and then I went in for the internal exam. In the process of this the Dr. stop the exam and stated to me that she was not going to continue with the exam because she saw that my cervix was open and the membrane sake was showing. An hour later I was informed that my cervix was open 3cm and I needed to be rushed to a high risk hospital to speak to high risk Doctor. They gave us a choice to go by ambulance or to drive, I choice to drive (nothing that that point could make the situation any easier or better). So we got in the car and drove to Albany Medical thinking that it was just to talk with a high risk doctor however we were extremely surprised when we arrived to find that I was being admitted. the doctors from the beginning informed my that things did not look good at this stage and the odds of me carrying another 3 weeks with bed rest was slim to none.
I spent the next three days laying in a bed praying that she not come and that she was as strong as her mommy and daddy were, she had to be she had us for parents!! The first to days went by with no change, this was not good but not bad, until the 3rd day. On June 28th I awoke at 5am feeling a little crappy but not bad and the nurse gave me something for the pain. All that day I was crappy on and off and at about 12:45 the nurse came in to check on me, she asked if I was having any discharge while going to the bathroom and I said a little but nothing that was out of the normal from what I had been told by the doctors when arriving. The Dr said she wanted to do an internal to check considering one hadn't been done since I was admitted, I had to go to the bathroom first and upon doing so notice that the discharge had turned to blood discharge and told the nurse. She continued with the internal and in doing so saw that I had gone from 3cm to 7 cm in a few days. I was taken to labor and delivery where I spend the next 2 hours just waiting for something to happen. My water broke about a half hour later and I went into full labor. I delivered a beautiful little girl whom we named Paisley Susan-Lee Pelkey, she was 11oz 9.3 inches long.
I still after almost 2 months have a hard time coping with the loss of our daughter we miss her so much, I am hoping that someone will reach out and help me cop with the pain and loss of her . Please if you have any support contact me.... Thank you for hearing my story