I had an abortion about four months ago and am feeling guilty about it whenever pregnancies are announced among my circle of friends. It seems like everyone around me is finding ways to make it work and I took the cowardly, easy way out. My bf just had surgery when I found out and I feel like because of my demanding work hours we made a rash decision. I was scared he would leave me and not love the child because he wasn't thrilled about the news. I never pictured having a child before marriage either. I question whether all these excuses are warranted because now I have so many regrets.

I wonder if I'll ever be able to find peace with myself. I wonder if my breakdowns which occur every few weeks will ever stop?
vogagirl vogagirl
31-35, F
1 Response Aug 16, 2014

I had a aborted well and it huants me every now and then it takes time and you have to forgive yourself in order to move on