Had One About 24 Hours Ago..

About a week ago, I posted a post saying I was going to have one in six days. I got some good feed back and some bad feedback. But before I state how it went, I want to say one thing : If you do not have anything positive or meaningful to say, then don't say it. The only reason people post malicious, emotionally harmful posts is because they want to make you feel bad to make themselves feel better and I am not for it. Many people on here are looking for SUPPORT, so give it to them and keep the nasty comments to yourself.

I went to the clinic on friday. The scarest part of the whole thing was getting my finger pricked, a shot and a camera put up my..ya know.. to see how far along I was. I was 6 weeks and 3 days. I took the first pill there at the clinic. Yesterday I took the abortion pills..Immediately I put the heating pad on me and fell asleep. When I woke up 3 hours later, I thought.. "wow I don't have that much cramping" and I didnt. I did bleed a lot but not an abnormal amount. For me that was the worst, going from laying down to standing up and it's not a good feeling. I stayed awake 3 more hours and then went to bed for the night. Now, It's 24 hours later and I am about to go to work from 2pm-9pm. The cramping is all gone but of course there is still bleeding. Now it's just like a heavy period. I'm still taking ibuprophen to help with the cramps/potential cramps and the bleeding. I was adopted and the whole situation was heart wrenching because I think that if my birth mom just had an abortion that I wouldn't be here today but everyone has their own reasons. I would never do this again, and with that said, I am never going to be put in this situation again. I think it's something you should learn from. To be more careful and that sometimes..birth control isn't enough..you need to be wiser. I'm 20 years old and still have a lot of growing up to do but if you don't learn from your mistakes, then you don't grow as a person. But I want people to know who may be going through one soon or right now like me, that it will be okay. You'll get through this. It's a big bump in the road but you will. Don't think of yourself as a bad person for it.

caitygirl caitygirl
18-21, F
5 Responses Jul 26, 2010

i don't need you to tell me if my child will forgive me or not. thanks though.

unfortunately one day you will mourn the loss of your first child , she will forgive you though

pls758:<br />
The pill isn't that bad. I don't know, maybe I was lucky in the sense that.. I mean.. 24 hours later I worked a 2pm-1030pm shift and I was fine. It's scary, I was hesitant with taking the pills. But online doesn't help. All i did, for the 4 weeks that I knew I was pregnant was READ, READ and READ about stories online and they freaked me out, beyond freaked me out, but I couldn't stop reading because I wanted to find out more. But everybody is different, you must remember that. If everyone was the same, then everyones stories would be alike, but they aren't. Your body will handle it the way it will and unfortunately there is no way to predict how bad your body will react. Sometimes if you are earlier on, it won't be as bad but yet again that brings me to the statement, we're all different.<br />
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ps. you don't know who writes those stories sometimes and if they really had one or they are a pro-life human being trying to scare you, but I want you to know, that you will be okay through it all. It's not easy, but..it may sound corny..what doesn't kill you, only makes you stronger!<br />
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tryingtobestrongatheart: Im glad the last few lines helped! and like I said, you'll be okay through it all. stay strong and I wish you the best!<br />
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and if anyone needs to talk, you can always message me!

I am calling my clinic tomorrow and I was all set with taking the pill but after doing my research online and reading the horror stories I am terrified. Now I dont know if I should still go with the pill or the procedure.

Thank you so much for your last three lines. I will be having my abortion tomorrow morning. i am too far along for the pills. I think the hardest part was giving myself a break. I told myself that I am far from being perfect. Like you said, even good birth control isnt always enough! I have to go to the store to get things i will need for the next 4 days. I will be in touch. Thanks for you strength, it helps alot:)