I Cant Get Over The Abortioni have been with my husband for 13 yrs married for 7 together we have three children. four years ago i found out i was pregnant with our fourth child. our third child was 11 wks old at the time. there is a only 12 mnth age gap between the two youngest, we had discussed the issue of not having anymore. i had asked him to have a vasectomy because i cannot take the pill and other hormone related contraceptives. but he would not go ! he said that if i had the baby he would leave us and he didnt want the baby there is no way i could support the four of us on my own with out major upheaval for the kids i couldnt do it.
so i went after the discussion at the clinic they refused to carry it out as i was so emtional upset by the thought of abortion, so i came home we then had massive rows the next day i went back on my own and went through with it . it was the worst mistake of my life, i realised the day after what a huge mistake i had made after a month i explained to him i wanted another child, however he then informed me he had been for a vasectomy and that wasnt going to happen- how doctors can do that we are married i think i should of been asked.consulted something ? i begged him many times for a reversal and he agreed but never went back.
its my birthday today and there is not a day goes by when i dont think about it. i getting to old for another child i'm in my late 30's i still cry and i hate him for it yet we are still together ? i have been to counselling and physics it pain that never goes away and still makes me cry even when iam typing this. is there anyone in the same postion?