My husband and I have been married for 15 years with 2 beautiful, healthy children. We always wanted a large family. We became pregnant with our third child and were thrilled. We soon found out through blood tests and an amniocentesis that our child had Down's Syndrome. We are Christians and always thought that we would NEVER do this sort of thing and were somewhat judgmental towards those who would consider it. I know that is not the Christian thing to do but we are human! We decided that for the sake of our 2 beautiful, healthy children to end the pregnancy. It was done 2 weeks and 1 day ago. We are devastated by what we have done! I have seen a Christian Counselor, a Psychiatrist, started a Bible study, etc.. but cannot get the act of KILLING MY BABY out of my mind! I would like to hear from anyone who was in a position like ours. I seem to only read about those who had abortions at a very young age and then find the Lord, etc. We are very different. We are in our late thirties and have always known the Lord. This is such a struggle for us and we are trying to keep a "strong" face for our two kids. God forbid they ever find out--what would they think of their mom and dad??
Written on March 14th, 2008