The Right Choice For Me.

My boyfriend and I have been in a long distance relationship for almost 2 years. Over the course of the last year, I grew quite close with a male coworker, and we became best friends. Over New Years, with the help of some libations, we crossed the friend line, and I got pregnant. It was amazing how I "knew" I was pregnant almost right away. I told my boyfriend about the hook-up, but I wasn't sure about the pregnancy yet, as I hadn't tested positive. I had a few weeks to think about things, let the situation sink in, before I told anyone I was pregnant, and during that time, I was very surprised how easy the decision was to end my pregnancy. Having an abortion was never something I ever thought I would want to do. I was pro-choice, but never thought it would be a decision I would make. When faced with the actual situation, it almost wasn't a decision at all. I never felt conflicted. Don't get me wrong, the whole experience (hook-up, pregnancy, abortion, etc) was rather emotional, but the decision itself came easily.
I'm a graduate student with almost $100,000 in student loans, and honestly, I didn't feel like the baby would have been mine. How could I bring a person into the world if I couldn't love it? No one deserves that.
I had a medical abortion at around 6 weeks, and while it wasn't an enjoyable experience, it wasn't as horrible as a lot of people make it sound online. I immediately felt a sense of relief that I had made the right decision for me. I kept my experience largely to myself until after my procedure because I wanted to process what was going on, on my own. After I told my close friends about my decision and experience, they were all very respectful and supportive. I'm really thankful for all the support I received, even if I sometimes felt like I didn't deserve it.
cyLon28 cyLon28
1 Response Apr 9, 2012

Honesty makes a difference. Good luck in all you do girl! May I gain your strength some day.