After My Abortion Expierience.

i was 17 when i had my surgical-Abortion.
in reality, i probably saved a large portion of my sanity.
but in my life, i made the worst decision by not making my own.
my boyfriend decided for me and our fetus what was best. everyday since the abortion, I've been climbing deeper into depression and i know i only wanted the baby because i couldn't imagine my life without a precious after eleven weeks with him/her inside of me.

i had an abortion, and while many smart, successful women/girls do not regret their decision, i deeply regret mine as i am using drugs and other substances to distract me from my internal pain. i envy those who choose to fufill their beautiful pregnancy and also those who are strong enough to move on and have a planned pregnancy when they are ready.
AloneAndLostGirl AloneAndLostGirl
18-21, F
3 Responses Apr 11, 2012

You'd be surprised how many smart, successful women REGRET their decision to abort... the reason it may seem that way is because they WONT SHOW IT. How will that make them look or feel; if they admit to making a "bad choice, wrong decision", when they are known for being smart, confident and informed? I know what you are going thru hun; and I wish I could say it gets easier but idk if it does... i do know it gets easier to HIDE the pain but all that does is eat u up inside. Id def seek help if I were you; I too would seek help if I knew I could do so without it affecting my career, family and relationships, but I cant. Good luck!

Not everyone "hides" their pain. I'm a grown, successful woman that has ZERO desire to have children. My contraceptive failed. I have no regrets or no sorrow. So, speak for yourself.

(I was speaking for myself.... I jus said youd be "surprised" to know there are women like that out there....geez)

You can try going to a pregnancy resource center for help, as they offer free counseling to post abortive women. If you feel that the abortion was a mistake, then know that we all make mistakes and we all have regrets. I personally find it better not to dwell too much on the past, but rather, to focus on not making the same mistake again in the future. I hope you are able to recover from this experience. Good luck to you.

Youre absolutely right about it being BETTER not to DWELL, and once I quit DWELLING, the healing could begin :)

I feel your pain .