I Had An Abortion
4.26.2012.
I was so happy when the test told me i was pregnant. I felt relief that my missed period meant something else besides the regular PCOS missed trip. My missed period meant my life was going to change. Was it a girl or a boy? What would I name it? What would WE name it? My boyfriend and I of a few months had talked loosely about the idea of me being pregnant and earlier that week, i realized my period was going to be late. I read over and over again that birth control can be unpredictable for the first few months, but to make sure to take a test when you see no period before starting back on contraception. So I took the test. And i was happy.
But i was terrified...
I had a very demanding job. I worked 40 hours a week and went to school full time. My money was tight and my rent was a little late. I had a bill collector trying to get me to pay for debts that my cousin opened in my name and I was so unsure about my life. I was terrified about everything. My boyfriend was not in school, had no job but a lot of dreams. Even i had dreams. So i made an appointment.
And then I was not pregnant anymore.
All my happiness turned into tears. All my love turned into blood. i wanted to take it all back as i felt the cramps worsen. but with each cramp, i knew i was free.
I knew i had made the right choice. I knew my life had changed forever. I hope i made the right choice.
I was so happy when the test told me i was pregnant. I felt relief that my missed period meant something else besides the regular PCOS missed trip. My missed period meant my life was going to change. Was it a girl or a boy? What would I name it? What would WE name it? My boyfriend and I of a few months had talked loosely about the idea of me being pregnant and earlier that week, i realized my period was going to be late. I read over and over again that birth control can be unpredictable for the first few months, but to make sure to take a test when you see no period before starting back on contraception. So I took the test. And i was happy.
But i was terrified...
I had a very demanding job. I worked 40 hours a week and went to school full time. My money was tight and my rent was a little late. I had a bill collector trying to get me to pay for debts that my cousin opened in my name and I was so unsure about my life. I was terrified about everything. My boyfriend was not in school, had no job but a lot of dreams. Even i had dreams. So i made an appointment.
And then I was not pregnant anymore.
All my happiness turned into tears. All my love turned into blood. i wanted to take it all back as i felt the cramps worsen. but with each cramp, i knew i was free.
I knew i had made the right choice. I knew my life had changed forever. I hope i made the right choice.
By:
LoganR22
Age:
18-21
,
Female
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