Keep Strong, Live On
Three months ago i had an abortion, most life-shaking experience i have ever been through and something i never want to re-live again. My situation was very tough, and i just thought to myself that i would never get past this regret, this emotional pain that drags with me every single day. But, it has become easier on me than the first couple of weeks, i still remember every little thing i went through that day like a horrible scar that will never go away. I felt so empty and not myself, i knew that it was too late to go back and change everything and i knew i had done the wrong thing the moment i walked out to the waiting room. I was so emotional that day and every night on for at least a month and a half. I started seeing all of these new born's every where i would go all of a sudden, and it hurt me so bad that i couldn't be a mother to my child and i just felt so guilty and thinking to myself "that would have been me right now". But as of now i have so much support and having people you love there for you is honestly so helpful. Having my partner here for me is very helpful as well, and even though he does not truly understand what it feels like he is here for me in any way he can help and sometimes all you need is somewhere there that you can express what you are feeling. I find myself in a better mental state now, i try not to bring about all the negatives on myself on what i have done, i just have moved on from all the guilt and tried to get on with life. This situation should not be taken lightly, every person is different and it will take a toll on someone differently too. If anybody comes across my story that is struggling or simply needs to talk i am here for you and i will not judge you, every one has their reasons.